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Post by Synistergrrl on Jul 2, 2009 12:20:59 GMT -5
Boy.. ya know for you two being so old, you're both dumb as rocks... come on.. we're gonna go for a drive, but you ain't stayin at a hotel... We'll drive all night if we have too...
~He pulled Pony up, his arm wrapped around Pony's shoulder and took the boy down the steps. When the got outside, he knew Darry was close with Soda, could smell him, so he yelled.~
We're goin for a ride.. be back in a bit...
~He knew Darry'd understand, so he got in to the GTO, revved it up and off they went. He didn't say anything for a little while, just let Pony unwind under the speed and the dark night. Finally he turned the stereo down and spoke.~
Pony, Soda doesn't hate you... how could he? Look at you... If I hadn't seen the look Soda gave me the night I started flirting with you up on stage, well, I'd have tried to bed you awhile ago...
~He knew it'd make Pony blush, squirm, but he wanted the boy to realize he was just as beautiful as Soda.~
Besides, Soda's in love with you Pony. And don't say he isn't, cause you're blind to it... like a horse with a hood on so it can't see the fire around it... you're to close to see the truth... it blinds you... but he's strugglin cause he doesn't want to take Possum away from you and maybe part of him doesn't know how to deal with how he feels for you. Gabriel's a distraction and if you can't see that then well, you're not just blind, but you're dumb too. And I know you aren't dumb.
~He looked over at Pony, watching the vampire for his reaction. He knew that Pony wasn't going to believe him, but he held up his hand before Pony could deny it.~
This is what I want you to do... I want you to let this go... this fight... you just let it go... and the next time your with Possum, I want you to sneak a peek at Soda and see him watchin you, I want you to see the look on his face. You aren't the only one that wears their emotions on their sleeve.
~Joe meant what he'd said, that he'd drive Pony around all night if they had too. As they were driving a group of deer passed by and Joe cocked his head at Pony.~
You wanna hunt? It'll make you feel better... just me and you... come on...I don't think I've let you pet me enough, Ponyboy.
~He purred those words, half teasing him, half not. Joe hadn't been lying when he said he'd have bed Pony. He liked Darry alot, hell maybe even loved him a little, but Pony was a pretty dreamy thing that made the wolf in Joe want to make Pony sigh.~
~Soda knew Darry was gonna blow when he heard that about Gabriel but he didn't care at the moment. He just shook his head when Darry put his arms around him and Soda hugged him. He heard Joe yell out and his breath was a shudder when he heard the car start up. Soda felt his whole world fall apart around him. He gave a cool laugh again, pushing off Darry and rubbing at his eyes.~
look at me, like some stupid fuckin baby...
~It sounded tougher in his head then it was. Soda looked up at Darry and gave a sigh.~
He hates me, Darry... so it doesn't matter what I want. I fucked it up... to little to late, ya know? And I don't wanna leave. He'd hate me more for that. He'd loose Possum and Kit. He's attached to that boy, like he's got Johnny back. Can you sit there and tell him we're leaving and he has to leave Johnny again... don't you remember how bad it was... like he was catatonic for weeks... and then.. he just disappeared. I found him...
~Soda looked down because he'd never told Darry this and it was hard~
I found him in a hotel.. he'd killed this kid.. this kid that looked a bit like Johnny... and... he was holed up in the corner like some crazed animal. I thought he was gonna kill me... he'd lost his mind.. he'd ripped that kid apart, Darry... I can't do that to him.. I can't see him go through that again, not when he's finally happy... so... you can tell him we're leaving... but you know... you KNOW he'll still blame me... so no.. we ain't leaving... not yet... I'll make it up to him.. I promise...
~He sounded like he was trying to convince himself of that, but he felt like some how that was an impossible feat at this moment.~
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Post by LittleDeadGrrl on Jul 2, 2009 13:41:02 GMT -5
-Pony had sighed a bit when Joe said he wouldn’t take him to the hotel. He was set on it but he let the wolf have his way at the very least for a moment. He could leave him later that night and right now he needed to be close to someone or he’d lose it for sure. He wasn’t even sure being in town was a good idea. He just wanted to be away from that house and most of all away from Soda. The silence made him drift off and that Joe started talking and Pony caught only half of what he said but he caught enough to blush and squirm his eyes darted at Joe … -
W-What?!
-He couldn’t believe the wolf said he’d try and bed him. He was nothing just some little 14 year old boy who wasn’t even tuff and Joe was so fucking cool and good looking. He was like Soda in a way. They both had that charm and charisma that made everyone wanna be around them. He sighed a bit looking off … -
Don’t make fun of me Joe …
-He didn’t believe the wolf but it didn’t matter cause Joe started talking about Soda again and it almost made Pony’s heart start up. When he said that Soda was in love with him he shook his head. He could feel the pain course through him like daggers and he wished Joe wouldn’t have said that cause he knew it wasn’t true. He just knew it. Believed it so much nothing would sway him from that fact … he frowned letting his fingers dig into the seats as he stared down again …-
Don’t … don’t say that Joe … it ain’t true and it only hurts … I accept how Soda feels about me a long time ago … I waited and hoped it might change but it never did and I just moved on … just now … don’t tug me back around cause it’ll hurt too much to believe again … and I was almost o.k with us just being good friends and now I don’t got that either … it’s done …
-He sighed as Joe held up his hand and than his brow furrowed. HIM let it go. He wanted that more than anything but Soda was never gonna wanna see him again. He’d never seen the vampire that hurt and angry. It’d be a while before Soda would forgive him for what he’d said tonight. He sighed a little bit staring off into the darkness and he didn’t say anything. When he mentioned hunting and than Joe was teasing him he smiled a bit. He murmured for him to stop the car. When Joe did he leaned in and hugged him close … -
Thanks Joe … I hope Darry ain’t stupid to let you go … look … I’m just gonna walk for a bit kay … clear my head … and I’ll be back by morning … I promise I won’t run nowhere …
-He pushed out of the car and let the wolf go. He slipped off into the darkness walking slowly away his shoulders slumped a bit like the whole world was on him but he was thinking about all Joe had said. He needed a bit of time to think before he knew what to do. Back at the house. Darry held on to Soda and he shook his head when the boy said he was some baby … -
You the tuffest kid I know …
-Darry smiled trying to get Soda to just let this go and go make up with Pony but the way the vampire shuddered well he knew this was no simple fight. He knew that Soda and Pony were just different than him. The way he thought. But he liked it and he knew he’d lose his humanity without them. He needed to find them curled up on the bed and he’d secretly listen to Pony read and it’d make him feel better. Without that he knew he’d become like Ace. He sighed a bit … -
Boy you stupid … Pony couldn’t hate you no more than he could grow six feet …
-He listened to Soda talk about how Kit was Johnny for Pony. He hadn’t seen it until that moment but there was a resemblance and than the story. Darry sighed softly as he sat down on a near by rock. He shook his head a bit shocked. Out of all of them he’d have cut off his hand before believing Pony could do a thing like that but maybe the youngest of them, the most sensitive, could do the worst because he felt things the most and he couldn’t contain them. He sighed chewing on his lips … -
Yeah but Gabriel is gonna drive you nuts Soda … think real hard about it … it’d be a lot easier on you for us to just go … look I’d take Pony’s wrath … and this time it wouldn’t be that bad … Kit ain’t Johnny … he just ain’t … and if you two made up Pony would be good … and we’d come back and visit ... wouldn’t be same thing … alright alright … I’ll give you a chance … you just go and hit him and make up alright …
-Darry sighed a little bit. He didn’t like this one bit. He needed Joe back to talk about this and have the wolf help him decide on what to do. He knew they’d be back soon. Maybe an hour at most. Him and Pony. It’d be fine. It had to be. He moved in a bit closer and tugged Soda into him smiling … -
Come on … it’ll be fine … you’ll see …
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Post by Synistergrrl on Jul 2, 2009 14:44:36 GMT -5
Pony.... You're the last one I'd ever make fun of...
~Joe's words were serious. He pulled the car over, his arms wrapping around the vampire and tugging him close, nuzzling into his neck some. He knew Pony was hurting, knew that he didn't understand what was going on between him and Soda, but if he could just take the blinders off, he'd see the truth. When Pony pulled back, Joe watched him get out of the car. He cocked his head.~
If you don't come back, Pony, I'm personally gonna hunt you down... and stay off the RES! You hear me?!? Stay off the Res!
~He sighed some watching the vampire disappear into the darkness. He could see the weight on Pony's shoulders and he knew how much it ate at him. Joe frowned, the shut the door and revved the car up kicking up dirt and stone as he drove off.~
~Soda looked up at Darry and gave a hollow little laugh.~
You're right... he is.... He's gonna push me to the point were I can't control myself, Darry.... and then Pony's really gonna hate me...
~He sighed some and shrugged.~
Maybe.... maybe I should go... you and Pony can stay here... I'll leave for a little bit... I'll come back... I promise... but just long enough to...
~He couldn't even finish it because the simple thought of leaving them was making his heart break. He shrugged, but then the sound of the car was coming up the drive and Soda turned and moved towards it. He was gonna beg Pony to forgive him. But when he got there and Joe got out alone, Soda's heart froze.~
Where..... where is he?
~He looked stunned and then everything kinda crumpled. But Joe just stepped in.~
He just needs some time, Soda. He'll be back... He just needs a little break...
~Soda took a few steps back, stepping into Darry.~
How... how could you let him leave?!? He... he's gonna... he could run and we'd never find him again...
~That idea galvanized Soda. He was shakin like a leaf, Darry could feel it and the vampire infront of him was about to loose his shit for good. His knees felt weak like he was gonna buckle. Joe looked worried, not because he thought Pony wouldn't come back, but because Soda looked like he might be sick.
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Post by LittleDeadGrrl on Jul 3, 2009 3:28:36 GMT -5
-Darry growled stepping into Soda than and grabbing him by the shoulders … -
You ain’t going anywhere … if you try I’ll beat your ass so bad you’ll think you were human again. I ain’t losing you or pony and that’s fucking FINAL …
-He sighed a little bit as the car came back. It’d be fine. He’d make Pony and Soda make up and it’d be fine. He couldn’t lose them just like he couldn’t lose Joe. It’d hurt too fucking much and maybe he didn’t cry but it didn’t mean he didn’t hold all that pain inside and store it up. He seemed a bit stunned as well when Pony wasn’t there but than Joe stepped in and explained … -
Soda … look Joe wouldn’t have let him go if he didn’t know he’d come back tonight … he will … Pony would never leave us kid … not in a million years .. and if he tried to do something so stupid well we got the best hound dog right here... Joe would track him in a second … now come on … just come on inside o.k … please …
-Darry sighed murmuring that soft word that he almost never used. He needed Soda to just keep it together cause he felt like he might lose the last of his family all in one night. He tugged Soda gently with him hoping to god the vampire stayed a bit sane if only for a moment. Somewhere out in the darkness Pony was wandering. He felt so fucking alone without Soda and now he was sure the boy would never want to see or speak to him again. He wander for a few more hours not going near the Res and finally he knew that maybe Joe was right. He started back towards the house and in a moment he could see the silhouette in the distance. One light was still on. He frowned standing there. For a moment he considered just leaving. Darry had Joe and he’d never liked him anyway. Not really. Soda now had Gabriel. He chewed on his bottom lip but he knew he couldn’t do it not before he was sure that Soda did hate him. If he saw that than he would go but not before … -
-… he slipped closer into the house feeling the chill of the wind or maybe that was just his own fear. Running his fingers through that dark hair he wished more than anything he had a cigarette so his hands would steady a bit. He slipped into the house and close his eyes hiding a bit in the shadows as he inhaled deeply trying to see where Soda was. His eyes flashed open and he inched in a bit closer into the house wishing for a moment he could turn back time 24 hours. Joe would be sleeping right now on the couch and Darry right beside him, not sleeping, but laying there wit his eyes closed and relaxing. Soda might out but he might be in Pony’s bed and yeah there was a chasm between them but they were talking and Soda didn’t hate him. He shuddered at the thought. Being back in the house made him remember the look on Soda’s face. So much fucking pain and anger and all cause of him. He wanted to cry again but he didn’t. He’d cried enough …. –
Soda …
-He murmured softly … -
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Post by Synistergrrl on Jul 3, 2009 7:58:39 GMT -5
~Soda had half expected Darry to tell him just to go, but when he roared at him, Soda just nodded his head. That is until Joe showed up. But even as Joe explained, all Soda could see was Pony out there alone and lost and confused and it was killin him cause he knew this was his fault. He listened to Darry though and just nodded.~
I already threatened his skin if he didn't come back...
~Joe shrugged and then moved towards the house like that was good enough. He didn't make any mention of what he'd said and Darry could see Soda bustin at the seams to ask. So the two vampires followed Joe inside. The wolf was in the kitchen, grabbing a beer, he looked up to see Soda moving towards him and he put out his hand to stop the vampire.~
Don't ask, cause I ain't tellin. What Pony said to me is between us... not you... and you can look as pissed as ya wanna Sodapop, but I don't care. That kid needs someone he can talk to... about you... And it's up to him if he wants to talk to you when he gets back. But let me say this, you touch him again like that, and I'll bust ya so hard you'll see stars for a week. I know you feel bad bout it... but you've had him in knots for years now... so... ya know.. he deserves a little payback.
~Soda stood stunned at all that. He glanced over at Darry and then he just stalked right back outside. Joe shrugged, knowing Darry would give him a look.~
He needs to know, Darry... it's not always about him...Pony'll be back by mornin at the lastest... he just needs to get somethings worked out is all.
~Soda didn't run this time, instead, he just sat on the porch, leaning against the house. He sat like that for a long long time, until he saw Pony walking up to the house. He'd recognize that form anywhere. He almost leapt off the porch and tackled him in a hug, but he wasn't so sure he should do that. He watched Pony hesitate and stand by the porch. And then Soda stood up. Pony would smell him no doubt, see him stand. At first he just stood there, staring at the boy, but then he closed the gap between them and grabbed Pony in a hard hug.~
I'm so sorry Pony... Don't be mad... please... I'd never mean to hurt ya... never...
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Post by LittleDeadGrrl on Jul 3, 2009 9:24:09 GMT -5
-Even Darry looked a bit stunned when Joe threatened Soda. His brow arched but than he almost half smiled a bit seeing him shut Soda up. When the younger vampire was off Darry sighed shaking his head. He light up a cigarette needing it to calm his nerves a little bit and truth was he was kinda dying to know what Pony had told Joe too … -
Goddamn kids …
-He shook his head … -
I sure am glad I didn’t bet money on the Soda and Pony thing … fuck you’d have cleaned me out … I never seen em fight before Joe … not in fifty years … not like that … shit …
-He sighed a bit and frowned leaning on the counter … -
You were right about Gabriel too. Kid’s out of his fucking mind … he wants Soda to bite him … I guess he’s said as much … and I know Pony wants to stay here cause he can’t loose Possum and Kit … and shoot I don’t want to hurt the little kid … but Gabe’s fucking trouble … and all I want is for us to pack up and go … so what we gonna do huh?
-He frowned shaking his head. By the time Pony returned Darry had tugged Joe into one of the free bedrooms and fallen into bed relaxing together. Pony slipped up the stairs. He was afraid to look at Soda in the eye sure the boy was gonna yell at him or just ignore him but in a second he was wrapped up in a tight hug and for a moment he stood a bit rigid making Soda think the boy wouldn’t even hug him back but Pony was just stunned more than anything. He sighed faintly and wrapped his arms tightly around Soda nuzzling into him a bit as he held on tightly … his voice came out a bit soft … -
… you ain’t mad at me Sodapop?
-He shivered a bit … -
… I thought … I didn’t think you’d ever want to see me again …
-He seemed a bit stunned by that but than he just accepted it and leaned into the vampire. He smelled so good. Felt so good. All he wanted was to kiss him and tell him to leave Gabriel but he knew that was just a nice dream and Joe was dead fucking wrong. He sighed faintly and pulled back slowly glancing up at Soda before looking down … -
… look we don’t have to talk about it … it’s just … this vegetarian thing … got us wound up is all … so can we just forget it all huh …
-He didn’t want to talk about it. He couldn’t get into all that. Not right now. It’d hurt too much. He brushed passed Soda and moved towards the house. He stopped in the doorway and looked back with those soft golden dreamy eyes … -
Come on … we can relax on the bed huh … and I’ll tell you why I was gone to the res kay?
-He smiled a little bit. He had to rebuild their friendship. He couldn’t lose Soda and maybe he’d never have him as anything else but he couldn’t allow this pain in his heart to seep out again and ruin his family. This was all he had right now. If he could just accept that Soda didn’t love him, not like that, than it’d be fine. He’d be with Possum and have Soda and Kit as best friends. He looked back inside a moment and than looked at Soda waiting to see if the boy would forgive him maybe and just do as he’d asked … -
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Post by Synistergrrl on Jul 3, 2009 15:03:48 GMT -5
~Joe smirked as Darry spoke up and he shrugged.~
They ain't kids, Darry. And you should ALWAYS trust me... I KNOW what's right...
~There was a double meaning behind that. But he just laughed a bit. Slippin in closer, the wolf's head cocked as he looked up at Darry.~
Well... Gabriel is trouble for sure... but maybe we can knock some sense into him. I don't think Soda will slip... I kinda... feel like he won't. So that kid can wait til the cows come home, don't mean he's gonna get what he wants....
~he was leaning into Darry then.~
You want me to tell you what I told Pony, don't you?
~He smirked, reading Darry like a book. He pushed off the vampire and started up the steps.~
You're gonna have to be REEEEAL nice to get it outta me... bloodsucker...
~He was teasing ofcourse and he nodded for Darry to follow him up the steps.~
~Later~
~Soda's arms seemed to tighten when Pony hugged back finally and then those words and Soda pulled back.~
Have you bumped your head? I'm not mad at you Pony... I couldn't live without ya... Don't ever think that I'd give you up...
~He cocked his head when Pony pulled from him and went to the door. The boy was offering peace, for now and on some level Soda knew that it was still too raw for both of them to talk about. He nodded then, agreeing to let it drop, for now. He walked up to Pony as the vampire offered to tell him why he was on the Res. Soda sighed a bit, draped his arm around Pony's shoulder and started up the steps. He dropped down on the bed and waited for Pony to follow before curling up with the boy against him.~
So... why were you on the Res?
~It was said softly, like he wasn't so sure he cared anymore. And honestly, he didn't, not with Pony in his arms. This was how is should be, just the two of them. But he knew that as much as Pony wanted to say that he'd picked Gabriel, well Soda also was very aware that the Coyote hadn't gone away. He lay there, nuzzled into Pony, his mind swirling with want to kiss the boy and make him sigh, but he just wasn't so sure that was what Pony really wanted. Not anymore. And now, how could he, Pony would just assume he meant to try and give Pony what he wanted, not cause Soda wanted it too. He sighed against that cool skin, knowing that they belonged together. This was how it should always be. Him and Pony and Darry and Joe and there'd not be a care in the world if it could stay like that. God please don't let the dawn come, was all Soda could think.~
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Post by LittleDeadGrrl on Jul 4, 2009 4:48:27 GMT -5
Joe …
-Darry growled a little bit but he half smirked as well shaking his head as the wolf teased him. He knew Joe would always be like this but he kinda liked it too. He laughed and than followed Joe up the stairs and when he got to their bedroom Darry pushed him roughly towards the bed and slammed the door behind them crawling up on top of the wolf. He leaned in nipping at his throat as he held him down pinning him to the bed … -
I don't have to be nice wolf … I could just kick your ass …
-He growled the words in his ear but his fingers were creeping up his back pushing his shirt up a little bit. He knew Soda and Pony would make up. They always did and right now the only thing that was on his mind was Joe. He felt as though he needed the boy there with him always. He needed his opinions. He needed him. He let his fingers tease across bare skin and the way he was so cold it'd make the wolf shiver a little bit … -
I couldn't live without you either Soda …
-Pony nuzzled into Soda whispering the words right back He suddenly felt so stupid about wanting to run away but he wasn't so sure it wouldn't happen again. Soda had looked so mad and hurt. He never wanted to see that look on his face. When they were in bed Pony curled up into Soda and nuzzled into him draping his arm across his chest sighing softly content. He murmured a little “huh?” when Soda asked the question as if he'd forgotten himself. He nodded than slowly but his mind was more on his perfect it felt to be there … -
O.K but you can't tell Darry or them … please Soda …
-He whispered softly and sighed … -
You know how I have that old copy of gone with the wind … well inside the book I had that picture of us … you know we took it by the gas station .. well Kit kinda of found that picture …
-Pony sighed softly as he pushed up staring down at Soda and the way they were so close and he was staring down into Soda's eyes the older vampire would be hard pressed not to claim his lips even if this news was a bit disturbing. Pony was chewing on his bottom lip looking a bit scared. Those big dreamy eyes a bit wider … -
He knows … I told him … I couldn't lie to him … I just couldn't and he begged me to stay … his life is so bad with his dad and stuff … we're his only friends … I told him not to tell Possum … I don't want you to tell anyone either … Possum would be so pissed at me I think … I don't think he wanted the boy to know about him …
-He sighed chewing on his bottom lip as he lay back down in Soda's arms curling into him … -
He said if we left we should take him with him … and I want to … I don't want to let him go again .. I can't lose him Soda … you know … I just can't … I know Darry wouldn't understand but he's tuff ... I guess maybe I'm not ... I kinda like it here Soda ... us living in a house again ... staying in one place ... I know we can't stay forever ... but it kinda feels a bit like home .... we fixing this house up again... it could be home couldn't it soda ... for a few years?
-Pony asked softly curling his fingers in Soda's shirt as he buried in a bit closer to him. He sighed closing his eyes and he felt himself almost relax in that moment. It felt so right being close to Soda ... -
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Post by Synistergrrl on Jul 4, 2009 7:47:37 GMT -5
~Soda was completely content to lay there all night and when Pony said Huh, Soda almost just let it go because he didn't want to ruin this. But then Pony was pushing up and saying something that didn't register right away because the vampire was so close that Soda only had to lean his head up and he'd have the vampire lips. But then the words settled on him like a blanket and his eyes widened.~
Holy shit, Pony.... he KNOWS?
~His voice was a hissing whisper, but Pony didn't feel an ounce of tension in Soda's body, he was amazed and shocked and maybe a bit worried.~
What did he... say when you told him all that? He didn't freak out?
~Soda's hand lifted and brushed back Pony's hair. He hated seeing the boy so worried and fretting like he was.~
I wont' say a word... for now, Pony... But at some point... well Kit's gonna have to tell Possum and you're gonna have to tell Darry...
~He smiled a bit knowing how much Pony would freak out over that. He pulled Pony back into him, listening to that soft voice speak.~
Yeah... I know... it feels like home... ya know... those two that I ran into... they said there were other clans, families is actually what they called them, in upstate Washington and Alaska that actually live permanently there that are like us... Maybe.... maybe we should go and check them out some day?
~He sighed and nuzzled against Pony again and then he frowned.~
I know you don't wanna loose Kit, Pony... but he's not Johnny... no matter how much you want him to be... he's not... and it's not fair to bring him with us... Hell, it'd be more fair to take Possum then Kit. Could you really sit back and watch Kit grow old and eventually whither up and die? I don't think I could. I'd want to make him like us... and I don't think I want to do that to anyone, ever.
~A frown crept to his face at that idea. He spoke it so easily and he knew it was true, which meant Gabriel wasn't getting what he wanted.~
He does look so much like Johnny though, huh? Acts like him too... though... not as nervous... not as....did you see those marks on him when we went swimmin? You think that Nicky kid did that to him? Or you think it was his old man?
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Post by LittleDeadGrrl on Jul 4, 2009 8:31:57 GMT -5
-Pony smiled a little bit … -
Actually he didn't freak out at all ya know. He said he'd kind of known about Possum. I think he was more worried about us leaving ya know ….
-He felt those fingers brush through his hair and it felt so good. So nice. His eyes fluttered almost closed a moment and he nodded a bit and even so he wrinkled his nose at the suggestion he had to tell Darry. He was scared of the bigger boy and worst he felt that Darry didn't really like him or want him around. He only tolerated him cause of Lucky's memory and cause of Soda. He sighed … -
I'd rather you tell Darry … he'd kill me for sure over this … he'd forgive you ... not me tho ...
-H lay back down into Soda and than the boy talked about the families and Pony siled a bit … -
I'd like that … I always wanted to see Alaska … since I read white fang … sounds so peaceful and white up there … clean … and there's so few people … just trees … Joe would be happy … he'd have a place to hunt and run … and we wouldn't have any temptations … and there'd be others like us there …
-He frowned and he looked down his voice holding a bit of pain-
I know he ain't ... I know no matter how much I wish it Johnny ain't never coming back … and maybe that's why I liked him at first … but it's more than that now … I feel like he should be with us … like he belongs with us … maybe not to be like us … but he does belong with us … I just know it Soda … I just know it …
-He sighed those words softly. Pony had never had any intention of biting Kit, of making him like them, not ever, he'd rather he was like Possum, but he knew he didn't want to lose him. It just hurt too fucking much. He frowned as he heard those last words and actually growled … -
I dunno but I don't like it … I'm gonna talk to Possum about it … if those damn coyotes spent less time on watching us and more on protecting Kit like they should he wouldn't have those marks … they knew I was there ya know … I could feel the whole pack watching me … shit Possum ain't gonna be happy .. but I don't care … I had to talk to Kit … he knows I'd never hurt him … I just wouldn't …
-He lay his head a bit on Soda's chest and shut his eyes sighing … -
God I wish we could sleep …
-He chewed on his bottom lip and than spoke softly … -
Soda … will you be nicer to Possum if I'm nicer to Gabriel?
-He pushed up and smiled a bit at that cocking his head to the side … he reached out and brushed his fingers through that dark hair leaning on one hand. He stared into those eyes ad for a moment the silence between them was more intimate as if both knew deep down they should be together and when the time was right they would be ... it just wasn't right now ... but the time would come and soon and nothing would tear them apart ... -
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Post by Synistergrrl on Jul 4, 2009 10:46:24 GMT -5
Pony... Darry cares about you too. Hell, you're kinda the pet ya know...
~He smirked cause he knew he'd get a dirty look for that, but then he laughed.~
I'm kiddin... no.. but he does.. he's always looked at you like a little brother... he doesn't understand you at all... not at all... but he loves ya. Yeah.. sure part of it's cause your Lucky's kid brother, and you remind him of Lucky sometimes, you don't realize how much you look like him, Pony. Though, Lucky was reckless and wild and you... you're more dreamy and thoughtful. But we've been together so long that Darry doesn't even see that anymore. He just sees you... his brother... like me... I'm his brother too... ya know?
~He shrugged a little bit.~
He won't hate you... he'll be mad, but he won't hate you... and he'll forgive you. Shit... what were you suppose to do, Pony? I mean... You're no liar... so... Besides... he thinks you're a tuff kid. I know you don't think he does. but he does.
~Soda's fingers started playing lazy circles and patterns on Pony's shoulder as the boy lay on his chest. He lay there for a moment quiet.~
Yeah... I'd like to see Alaska too... I remember that book.. the one about the dog, right? Like half wolf or somethin....yeah... Joe would like it there...
~He gave a little laugh, soft and barely audible, but Pony would feel it in his chest.~
Funny how that wolf riles Darry up. I've never seen someone frustrate and amuse Darry so much as Lucky did... Joe knows how to twist Darry just right.. it's good for him... makes him happy... ya know... if it weren't for us... he'd be like Ace.... just like him.
~Soda sighed and then when Pony said that all the coyotes had been out there, he frowned.~
Oh... Pony... I don't like that. You stay off that Res from now on. I don't want them to get the wrong idea and hurt you cause of it, ya know? I know you'd never hurt Kit and I think the kid knows that too, but they don't. Lord love a duck, Possum's gonna be pissed... that's great...
~He understood Pony's frustration with Kit's situtation, it wasn't like they all hadn't gone through all that before. His fingers crept into the back of Pony's hair, twirling it softly along his fingers. But the next question caught him off guard. He went a bit rigid, but relaxed when he realized Pony was trying to bridge the gap.~
Yeah... sure... I'll be nicer... if you are.... Pony...
~He said his name like a question.~
I'm gonna tell you somethin and I don't want you freakin out about it, Kay?
~He didn't really wait for a response.~
Gabriel... he wants to be like us... he wants me to bite him.
~He knew Pony was about to freak, so he quickly went on.~
It's not gonna happen. I realize that I don't wanna be like Ace and I don't wanna do that to someone else. So, he's not gonna get it... not from me. But... I just want you to know... I know he's after something. I'm not blind and maybe I'm not as smart as you, but I'm not a complete moron either...
~He kept Pony against him if the boy tried to push up and then he leaned in and nuzzled into Pony's hair.~
I want you to trust me, Pony... I'm not ever gonna do that. Not ever to anyone... not Gabriel, not Kit, not anyone. It's wrong... understand me?
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Post by LittleDeadGrrl on Jul 5, 2009 3:04:46 GMT -5
PET?! Sodapop that's the meanest...
-Pony pushed up a little bit giving Soda a dirty look but he half smiled a little bit too as he laid back down. He sighed as Soda talked about Darry and Pony didn't believe one word of him. Lord knows as little as Darry understood him it was the exact same way. Pony just didn't understand the older vampire. All Darry seemed to do was tease him or yell at him for doing something wrong. Soda usually calmed Darry or told him to lay off. His brow furrowed faintly … -
I think you're wrong about him but you're right .. I ain't no liar … and I will have to tell him …
-Pony nodded a bit outstretching his hand and letting it toy across Soda's chest … -
Yeah ... I never seen Darry smile as much as he has recently … 'specially after Lucky … you know … and I like Joe a lot … he's really cool … he's like you Soda …
-Pony smiled a bit as he said that staring off. He did like Joe a lot even before tonight but now especially. The wolf had been so nice and patient and he was the reason Pony had returned at all and he was glad cause else he knew he'd have run off afraid to face Soda ever again and he would hurt hurt Soda and Darry beyond repair. Pony nodded a little bit shutting his eyes for a moment as he saw those eyes staring back at him … -
I'll try … I just wish they'd trust us more you know … but maybe if they see I don't wanna hurt Kit … they will you know …
-Pony's voice had this voice innocence to it. In a way Pony would always be 14, just a kid, but that was just his heart and he wanted to hope for the best. It was stupid in this case. The coyotes would kill him for going on the Res too many times simply because they'd feel threatened while all he'd want is for them to see that he would never and could never hurt Kit. Not in a million years. He'd pushed up than and stared down at Soda smiling when he said he'd be nicer and than he asked that question and Pony's brow arched and than those next words came and Pony pushed up looking shocked … -
He .. he .. what!?
-Than Soda began to talk and Pony shook his head. He shivered and when Soda tugged him back he sighed moving into Soda a bit. He nuzzled into the boy's neck feeling like he wanted to kill Gabriel for this because he knew if Soda bit him the coyotes would run them off and he knew that if Soda lost control he might lose Soda. He felt a soft shudder creep up his spine … -
Oh Soda …
-He shut his eyes and buried a bit deeper into Soda … -
I'm sorry about all the terrible things I said to you … I know you ain't stupid … you a thousand times smarter than I am … I'm stupid … I just … the way he looks at you sometimes … I know there's good in him … you like him and lord knows Possum likes him an awful lot too … but he scares me … ad I'm afraid I'm gonna lose you to him … that'll he'll make you do something bad .. and you'll feel so terrible ... and I'll lose you ... promise me you won't leave me .. not ever no matter what ... cause without you I ain't nothing
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Post by Synistergrrl on Jul 5, 2009 3:59:27 GMT -5
~Soda had a feeling he wasn't gonna convince Pony just how much Darry cared for him, but he could try. He just listened to the vampire next to him and then when he'd spilled all that out, it was Soda's turn to push up. He was on one elbow, leaning over Pony. His finger brushed back Pony's hair and then he forced the vampire to look into his eyes.~
Listen to me good, Ponyboy Curtis... I told you it ain't gonna happen. I'm NOT ever gonna leave you and I'm NOT gonna bite him or anyone. I won't. Not even if he begs or opens a vein infront of me. I will NOT do it. Got me?
~He let go of Pony's chin then and his face drew softer then.~
Besides, where would I go without you, Pony. I'd have been just as bad as Ace if not for you. I know me and you keep Darry sane... but you... YOU keep me sane. Hell...you kept Snare sane. He'd have gone off the deep end if not for me... and you were the cause I didn't run right after him and take the leap off the cliff before him. I don't think you understand just how important you are to me, Pony...
~His brow furrowed a little as he said those words and then he slipped back, laying back down and pulling Pony into him. He knew in that moment they were very close to admitting things to one another, he could feel it. But he wasn't so sure it was the time. Not that he didn't want Pony, but he felt the vampire deserved Possum for a little while. Maybe a form of punishment to himself for having been with Snare for so long and ignoring Pony and then relying so heavily on him afterwards and letting things well up without doin nothin about it.~
~Soda was brought out of the revelry by a thump and then what sounded a bit like a crash. He pushed up, as if someone was invading, ready to fight if need be, but then he realized what it was and were it was coming from and he laughed.~
Sounds like Joe's not going down without a fight....
~Soda's eyes sparkled with that mischief and fire as he looked at Pony knowing the vampire was about to be embarrassed by that.~
Darry'd kill us if he knew how much we know about him and Joe. I like him too, Pony. He's like... I don't know... part of us now. Like I don't think I'd want him to leave... and I don't think he's goin anywhere. I think he's taken to us as much as he's taken to Darry... maybe you a bit more so.
~And in that tone, Pony would have to question if there was just a spark of jealousy tinging those words when Soda said them.~
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Post by LittleDeadGrrl on Jul 6, 2009 2:45:54 GMT -5
-Pony pused back a little bit staring across at Soda as he spoke with those big old dreamy eyes and for a moment in the moonlight he did look stunning and every bit his vampire heritage. He shivered looking down a bit until Soda forced him to stare up. Those words dug deep and he felt that warmth wash over him. He smiled a little bit and than buried into Soda not saying anything. He could feel his heart beating a little bit quick and it felt so good to have that chasm draw in a bit closer. He moved in little bit almost dusting his lips across Soda's neck as he closed his eyes ready to pretend he was asleep. He never wanted to leave this spot. He never wanted morning to come … -
Soda? -His brow furrowed as he sat up with a start and a for a moment he was sure the coyotes had come to kill him for tresspassing on their land but than Soda was laughing even as Pony looked a bit confused until Soda explained it and Pony stared up with big eyes and squirmed looking like he'd turn a deep shade of red. He shook his head a little bit and half smiled leaning back into Soda … -
That's so weird … him and Lucky always used to go cruising for girls … well Darry did … Lucky usually had Cherry with him … she was awful nice too … I was sad when she moved … I caught Lucky crying a bit after her though he didn't know I knew an I never told him …
-Pony smiled a bit staring up at the ceiling relaxing a bit as Soda talked about Joe and than he laughed a little bit … -
I think you're right … I like Joe a lot … he teases me something awful though … said he wanted to bed me but he knew Darry would kill him … I think he was just making fun of me though ...
-Pony said those words a bit innocently. Course Joe had said Soda would kill him but he didn't want to admit that just yet. He looked back at Soda waiting to see if he'd freak out about that or not. He found he liked teasing Soda a little bit … -
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Post by Synistergrrl on Jul 6, 2009 6:13:54 GMT -5
~Soda had smirked when Pony realized and got so fidgetty about the whole thing. But then he heard what Pony said about Joe and Pony would feel the vampire grow a bit rigid against him. His jaw set for a moment and there it was before Soda could wipe it away, that jealous monster crept forth on his face, but he didn't really realize Pony was watching him so intently. He closed his eyes for a moment and let it slip away, pushing it back down and then he tugged Pony closer.~
Yeah...well, Darry might kill him if he fucks around. I honestly think Darry had a thing for Lucky... or maybe... I don't know... maybe it's just, after a while what sex a person is don't matter if you have someone. I mean... cause of what we are, ya know? It's not like he can go pick up some human girl in a bar to be with. We all know how that would go over. So it would mean finding a vampire and I think we just limited ourselves down to about a handful of others because of our new lifestyle....
~Soda shrugged a that, the jealousy over with now that he was talking about something else.~
Ya know.... I know you don't like Gabriel... I know it's cause he's... dark and kinda trouble... but honestly... I don't hate Possum... I just...I know he's protective of Gabe, and he don't trust me, so maybe it's a little jab at that.
~That was a lie. he knew honestly it was cause of Pony and Pony would know it as soon as Soda said the words. He let out a soft sigh.~
But... he makes you happy right? If he does, then that's all that matters. I've not seen you smile like that in a long time...
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