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Post by Synistergrrl on Feb 18, 2013 14:41:09 GMT -5
~Jules sighed as Em pulled away, the vampire was lost in that euphoria, but then Em was talking and for a moment Jules was so confused but then he just laughed.~ He doesn’t chase you… that’s always been the problem, Em. You have all these boys chasing you and then it bores you, they bore you. ~Jules moved in closer to Em.~ Let’s go out… I think Declan and Miko have already left… let’s go out… It’ll help to get us both a bit used to a city again. ~When Em agreed, Jules pulled on a coat and scarf, waiting for Em to do the same. They left together, heading out into the night. But New York was like Paris, bright and glittering and big, so very very big. But Jules and Em had been there before, once when they were still humans, a treat to visit Jules father and then again after the change. Now they were older and there wouldn’t be such a bloody price to pay for this trip. Jules looped his arm into Em’s and walked down the block towards the busy St. Mark’s street of the Village.~ You know… He infuriates you but you like it. ~Jules teased just a little bit but then he got a bit more serious.~ So… tell me if he bothers you so much, then why are you bothering with him at all? ~Jules knew that on some level him and Em were still not right, but Em needed someone to talk too, and Jules had always been that person. They walked down the busy street looking like a young beautiful couple. Infact, they had more than a few stares as they passed. Jules wanted tonight to just be the two of them, to maybe have some normalcy back in their lives. It helped to have Em with him as they moved along the sidewalk. There were plenty people of all ages even at this time of night. But Jules was staying focused on Em. It was easier now since he’d had some of the vampire’s blood. But Jules was also aware that tonight he’d be trying to see just how much he could stand, just how close could he get without actually killing someone.~
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Post by LittleDeadGrrl on Feb 18, 2013 18:20:48 GMT -5
-Em snorted a bit dismissing theory ... -
I never had the one boy I wanted chasing me ... did I?
-He nodded at the offer of dinner. Slipping on his clothes he smiled when the old city wrapped it's arms to cocoon them. His came kept wandering over the coyote wondering what he was doing and who he was doing it with. The bright glittering lights relaxed him, he shined in this place, both of them did. He smiled a bit glancing at Jules as he tugged the vampire in closer nuzzling a bit into him. He didn't know when it had happened but at some point he'd forgiven the vampire a bit. Maybe it was seeing him so broken. He didn't know. Trust was something else ... whether he could ever trust him again he didn't know but he loved him and there it was. He snorted when he brought up Hawk again ... -
I don't know ... maybe I just want something warm me at night ...
-He chewed on his bottom lip shaking his head before glancing at Jules-
He does preoccupy my mind alot ... but I don't trust him ... or trust myself around him ... he's going to leave ... I know it ... and he'll take a little more of me and I'm not sure how much is left ...
-He frowned speaking softly. He liked that it was just the two of them tonight. That they could talk. That he had someone to confide in again. Ren was no good sharing emotions or talking about anything really-
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Post by Synistergrrl on Feb 19, 2013 13:43:14 GMT -5
~The question sort of stung. But it was easier not to say anything about that. But once they were outside, walking and talking, like things were normal again. Jules smiled at the way Em over analyzed everything. And then the later part and he sighed a bit. Jules stopped, pulling Em to stop as well. They were standing outside of a lovely little restaurant that had Christmas lights in the trees and all around. Jules lifted those amber eyes to Em.~
Em... You always give so much of yourself to those around you. And then you break. You sort of freak out when it becomes too much. You have to learn to let go a little bit. If Hawk is only here for a week, then so what, if he'd around for a month, great... and if he lingers longer then even better. It just means you get to enjoy him that much longer.
~He gave Em that look, that one that said "are you listening to me?". And then he looped his arm back in Em's and tugged him along before he smiled.~
You need to just let go and enjoy him. He's exactly what you need right now, Em. You need to just have some fun.
~He grew a little quiet to let them both think before he went on.~
Em..... I love you... you know that, right? Always have. I want you to be happy but... I'm not the one that will make you happy. I never have been.
~He stopped again, once they were in the shadows and he sighed. They had never talked about this before and then Jules went on.~
I... was always so very selfish, Em. I wanted everything, enough so that I never gave you or Ren a choice about anything. And... if you want the honest truth, I wasn't really sorry about it. I always thought, I knew better, then you, or Ren. That you'd both see the truth of it all.
~His brow furrowed and then he just gave a worn sigh and he took Em's hand, leaning in, staring into those gold eyes.~
I was so wrong, Em. And I'll never be able to make that up to you. Not ever...
~He wasn't looking at Em anymore, he'd turned his head down as he realized he was sort of rambling. Em would see him shudder.~
Shut up....
~His voice was soft when he said it, talking to himself obviously and not to Em, which was a little frightening. Em could watch the vampire try and collect himself. He could see Jules crumbling before his eyes. But then he took a step back, away from Em and he took a deep breath, eyes closing and Em could hear a little chant.~
He's not here, you're okay, he's not here, you're with Em, he's not here, you're safe
~After a second or so of that, he looked up and it was like he'd been transformed back to his old self, or well, to those that didn't know him would see his pulling himself together and being normal, Em on the other hand could see the cracks, bigger this time and the strain of keeping that wall up.~
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Post by LittleDeadGrrl on Feb 19, 2013 19:02:16 GMT -5
-Em sighed knowing that Jules was right. He wasn't sure if he needed Hawk but fuck if he didn't want him. Even now he missed the big coyote who always seemed to get on his last nerve but he made him feel alive again, he made him smile. He sighed but nodded slowly as he ran his fingers through his hair ... -
I know you're right ... I overcomplicate things ... I ruined it with Devin ... I don't want to ruin what time I have it Hawk ...
-He looped his arm with Jules leaning into the vampire a bit as he closed his eyes a moment enjoying the soothing sound of his face. After the comfortable silence Em glanced back at Jules for a moment but he looked off ... -
I know that Jules ...
-In that shadows he watched Jules apologize before he fell apart slowly crumbling before his eyes and he knew Ren had no idea how bad it was for Jules because if he had he'd never have let him go. He moved in closer and tugged the vampire in to him hugging him tightly as if he could keep him glued together just by holding him tightly ... -
Jules ... it's ok ... it's just me I'm not gonna let him hurt you ...
-He pulled back after a little while and pushed Jules's chin up ... -
You still think you're smarter than me or Ren ... and you're not. You're a fucking idiot and you're a fucking mess and I know that wolf doesn't have clue ... does he ..
-Em eyed him slowly before smoothing the hair from his face-
Come on ... let's go relax in some dive bar ... we can listen to bad music like we used to ...
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Post by Synistergrrl on Feb 19, 2013 20:55:41 GMT -5
I... I know Em... I know...
~His voice was so soft, timid actually and then his chin was lifted and he was staring into Em's eyes. He gave a little smile as Em said he still thought he was smarter but then he asked about Ren and he shrugged.~
I told him... I just... I don't think he understands... not completely. I can't tell him, Em. Not all of it, not everything. He'd loose his mind... he'd go after Jean Luc, until one of them was dead.
~His hand went up to the bite mark on his shoulder that Ren had left on him, rubbing it softly.~
He'd not be able to understand we are better and safer if we stay hidden. Revenge is only a means to all of our deaths...It's not noble or honorable, it's just death.
~He nodded at the suggestion to go to the bar. And so he let Em lead him to some dive of a bar. They went and found the darkest booth and sat, pretending to drink, listening to the music and just sort of watching. It was then that Em decided they should call home. Jules nodded, pulling away from his friend as he plucked his own phone out of his pocket. He dialed Ren's cell phone and let it ring. When the wolf answered, Jules felt the smile pull up on his lips.~
Hey Wolfie.... Missin me already?
~He purred and then he sighed, listening to Ren's voice. That sound was like the most soothing warm bath. He felt safe just simply hearing Ren's voice.~
How are things there? How's Finn?
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Post by LittleDeadGrrl on Feb 19, 2013 22:26:03 GMT -5
That does sound like him ... but still ...
-Em frowned a bit softly sighing as he brushed the hair from Jules's eyes-
It's going to get better. We're safe here ... we won ... just remember that.
-He knew those words were hallow though as he tugged Jules in close hugging him tightly and for a moment he just kept the vampire close nuzzling into him a bit before whispering softly ... -
Don't leave me again ... you owe it to me ... and to Ren ... for what you did ... I got a blood debt coming to me and I'm cashing it in ...
-It hurt to see him so broken even after everything. He had no idea how broken Jules was and how much he could trust his thought process right now. Could trust he wouldn't do something stupid or fall apart completely. Would time be able to heal what Jean Luc had done to him? Once he'd have said yes without any reserve but now he wasn't so sure. Wolves could bent, they were weaker maybe softer, but could bend. Vampires were so rigid, like statues, hard as stone, but one chipped you couldn't glue them back so easily. They were in the club and Em pushed the vampire to call Ren. He knew it'd help. Jules could hear the smirk in Ren's voice-
You know I fucking hate it when you call me that ...
-He snorted a bit ... but smiled faintly-
Yeah ... but only in my bed.
-Hearing Jules's voice relaxed the wolf instantly-
Colt got us a cabin. It's great. A bed. Hot water. You can decorate it when you get back ... and Finn ... I dunno ... he's a vampire how the fuck should I know what goes on in his head ...
-He paused before going on ... -
I think he misses you and Em. I'm sure he gets bored at night ... he's been good though. So when are you coming home ...
-He knew he sounded like a girl, it had only been a day, but even so he didn't like having his mate so far apart. The wolf inside of him chaffed at the idea and Jules was right. If Ren had any idea how bad it had all gone down, how broken the vampire was, he'd snap and go after Jean Luc-
Is Em alright?
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Post by Synistergrrl on Feb 20, 2013 20:36:36 GMT -5
~A smile played over Jules lips.~
I won't... I promise...
~That was one thing about Jules, is he promised something he did everything in his power to keep that promise, or atleast to those he loved.~
I know.... I owe you everything, Em.
~The moment he heard Ren's voice he relaxed. It was like the sane part of him was able to beat down the doubt and worry. It was safety, but it was more that he knew if he could be with Ren, that everything would be okay. He could keep the insanity down.~
You looove it when I call you that, and don't pretend that you don't.
~Jules purred hearing the wolf calm down as well. He laughed at the comment.~
You better be missing me in your bed and not be filling it with anyone else...
~Jules teased but Ren was talking about the cabin and the vampire laughed.~
I am not your bitch, Ahren InsertLastNameHere! But it is good to not have to come home to a tent again. It's not near the town though is it?
~A bit of worry from the vampire and then he sighed as Ren acted as if he knew nothing about Finn.~
You are no help. Now I have to call him and he's going to whine about how I didn't bring him with me. But I know he is missing us, I'm missing him. Soon, Em and Miko are going tomorrow night to meet up with this vampire. And then we'll start heading home the next day. I don't want to be here long...
~He looked over at Em when the wolf asked about the other. He smiled.~
He's taking care of me... But he's pining for that coyote.... I assume he's still there? Infact, by the smile on Em's face across from me, he obviously is....
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Post by LittleDeadGrrl on Feb 22, 2013 22:01:48 GMT -5
-Ren smiled listening softly to the vampire. He missed the vampire already but hearing his voice made it all better. He snorted when Jules tossed those words back at him. Ren grinned a bit ... -
I can't promise anything ... the wolf wants what it wants ... Niki is cute and as alpha I get priority ...
-He teased the vampire right back. He laughed when Jules said he wasn't his bitch-
You're MY bitch ... the alpha's bitch ...
-Ren grinned ... -
Well you are his mom ... who else should he whine to but you. He's ok ... Ace has been sitting up with him alot of nights ...
-He frowned a bit slowly ... -
Good ... cause a few days is all you have ... after that I come after you ...
-Ren smiled a bit when he heard about Em. He loved the mopey vampire and wanted him to do well. He snorted when he talked about Hawk. The coyote seemed ok but he didn't want him hurt. He nodded slowly ... -
He's here ... and he doesn't seem like he's going anywhere for awhile ... especially since Corbin is keeping Colt happy ...
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Post by Synistergrrl on Feb 23, 2013 10:26:20 GMT -5
The wolf might need to be neutered if he's not careful.
~Jules threatened. But he was smiling some.~
Am I now? You keep thinking that, Ren....
~He purred. And it was that dangerous purr, the one that was always meant just for Ren. The sound that said Jules was taking that as a challenge.~
Shut up... I am no one's mother... Em would be the mom, I'm, if anything, the cool father....
~He laughed a bit.~
It's good someone is staying up with him. But you should make everyone help, Ren. It's not far to have Ace try and stay up all the time.
~He sighed a bit.~
I will be home soon. It's harder here... too much... ya know... I'm not so used to it anymore. So, I'm going to be coming home very soon.
~He looked up at Ren again and smiled.~
Good, we owe a lot to Colt. Make sure Hawk stays there, Ren. I think Em would be devastated if he wasn't, though he'd not admit that.
~He grew a bit silent and then he spoke softly.~
I love you Ren... I wish you were here, I miss you...
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Post by LittleDeadGrrl on Feb 23, 2013 11:21:53 GMT -5
-Ren sighed pacing the small room quietly. He frowned as he stared at the phone knowing he had to let Jules go for a bit longer but the last bit tore at him .. -
Fuck ... don't say shit like that ... you know how hard it is for me when I shift not to start running towards you ...
-He leaned against the wall pressing his forehead to the cool surface as he shut his eyes a moment. He knew this kind of peace wouldn't last long ... -
Whatever you find ... come home soon ...
-He hung up after a bit unable to stand hearing Jules's voice any longer. He didn't care what the price was to have him home. He just needed him to come home. Em approached as the vampire hung up dropping down before smacking him upside the head-
I am NOT the mother ...
-He growled unamused before smirking a little bit. Em seemed so much calmer than before. He reached out brushing the hair from Jules's face seeing the same. The vampire wrapped around the finger of two shapeshifters. He leaned in nuzzling into him before he whispered-
Come on ... let's go hunt ... we shouldn't be out too later ...
-He knew they'd find some boy in this club who would see the two of them and want them. He also had a good feeling Jules could be hunting for a big dark haired boy that resembled a certain wolf like he always did when Ren was far from him and he missed the wolf. Em spotted the boy first smirking as he motioned towards him teasing Jules a bit by finding someone that resembled the alpha so much ... -
How about him ...
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Post by Synistergrrl on Feb 25, 2013 20:27:55 GMT -5
~Jules smiled and Ren could feel it.~
Hmmm, I like that... It's good to know I still got some hold over you....
~He purred, teasing, just making it worse a little bit.~
I will... soon... I'll call you tomorrow night when Em gets home...
~He hung up and then got smacked and he laughed, tugging Em in closer.~
Yes you are... or.... if I am, then I'm like the Joan Crawford of mothers...So... I'd rather be the father, least I'm expected to be distant and I can get away with being an ass...
~He teased, but then he nodded to the question and moved through the crowd. Em had picked out someone that resembled Ren and ofcourse, that was all it really took. Jules moved in like a shark. It was graceful, beautiful really, the way he moved, the game. But what Em would notice that was a little frightening was that it would remind him very much of when they were young. There had been a bloody swath torn through most of Europe because of the two of them. And this could turn easily back into that. Jules wasn't as naive or wild as a new born fanger, no he was a little older, more like a teenager. It was all flash, but there was a game there, toying with the game before killing. And Jules was doing just that. tempting this boy with ease.~
~After some dancing and a couple of drinks, Jules had the boy convinced to go with him and Em back to their hotel. Once outside, Jules lead him easily down a dark ally and pushed him into the dark shadows of some doorway. The boy was a little drunk, his hands all over Jules, but reaching out to tug Em in with them to that doorway. But in a moment Em would hear him suck air as Jules bit into his neck with a low moan of want.~
~Elsewhere~
~Miko leaned on the railing of the Empire State Building, his back to the city as he watched Declan look through one of the metal telescopes. He was smiling, the wind toying through his blond hair. His scarf was wrapped around his neck and he was hunkered down in the jacket, but it was only an act. When D lifted his head, Miko just smiled. They'd already eaten twice, once at an Italian joint Miko knew the owner of in the heart of Little Italy and then again at a little place in Chinatown. Both places knew Miko, both excitedly fed them, especially Declan, trying to top each dish with a new one. And then they'd gone to Times Square before taking in other tourist sites before ending up there on the top of the Empire State Building.~
Is it everything you thought it was going to be?
~He teased, moving to curl into Declan. The wind picked up and the cat sighed against the warm wolf.~
You know... I am kinda getting famous... More and more photographers and designers want me to work for them... I could use a body guard...
~He teased looking up at the wolf. The sun would be up soon enough and then they'd have the day before the big test. Miko considered this a test, even if Declan didn't. He desperately hoped the wolf would pass, he didn't know what he'd do if he didn't. Miko was already sort of lost in the wolf and that was bad. He owed so much to his own kind that he couldn't turn his back on them and he doubted they'd let him. He was too good at what he did.~
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Post by LittleDeadGrrl on Feb 26, 2013 21:54:28 GMT -5
-Em smiled when he was tugged in. He dropped down next to the vampire rolling his eyes when the vampire said he would be the distant father. He shook his head but said nothing knowing Jules wouldn't be the distant anything to Finn. He knew the vampire missed the younger boy as much as he did. Finn was soon forgotten as the vampires went hunting. Em hesitated a moment but it didn't take long to give in to that same predatory desire. Alone in the dark shadows Em leaned in biting the other side of his neck as he fed off the boy as well. He knew he shouldn't but the blood smelled so good. He pulled back wiping the blood before he reached out touching the vampire's arm ... -
Let him go Jules ...
-He growled in his ear waiting to see if he'd regain control or let go to the beast. He knew the vampire was cracking. He needed to gain control and Em was going to guide him because who else was there. Ren couldn't do this. The wolf wasn't equipped with dealing with Jules in this state-
~Elsewhere~
-Declan tugged the cat in closer. He wounds his arms around him as he stared out at the huge city that seemed to go on for miles. This high up even he felt the wind wipping around them but the cat's warmth made it all fade away. For once in his life he was full. The food had been amazing, he was sure he'd never get tired of eating something new, but truth was being with Miko was what made it all worth it. He smirked a bit ... -
I don't know ... I didn't have a clue what it'd be like. It's crazy ... so many people ... how can you breath ... how can you shift here ...
-He smirked a bit grinning faintly ... -
Yeah ... well you got one ...
-He teased the cat a bit as he tugged him in roughly closer claiming his lips. He knew tomorrow was a test but Declan had no fear. He knew he could control himself. He nuzzled into the cat before speaking softly ... -
Why are you so tense ... I ate with the knife and fork ... and I didn't throw any of the bones on the floor ... wasn't that my test?
-He teased him a bit grinning a little-
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Post by Synistergrrl on Feb 27, 2013 19:13:41 GMT -5
~Jules hesitated, he couldn't help it. The blood was so good and this boy was all but begging, but when he felt Em's hand, he slowly pulled back. He licked his lips, eyes closed before he turned to look at Em. There was that bliss in those eyes as he tugged Em in closer, claiming his lips. Jules was lost for a moment in the song of blood. As he pulled from the kiss. He let Em's taste drag him from that revelry and stepped out of the alcove. For a moment he just lifted his head up to the sky and took in the dirty scent of the ally. He smiled at Em and motioned for him to come closer.~
Let's go... There's got to be other clubs... other boys....
~He teased, taunting Em to come with him. But it was a slippery slope, one that at any second either one of them could fall from.~
~Elsewhere~
You get used to it... you shift in the park or I go upstate... I usually leave New York when the full moon is close. It can be too dangerous... But... nature survives here, D. Just... not the way you think. There are all sorts of animals, things besides rats, foxes, raccoons, hawks, snakes... everything within the city. Hell, there are even deer.
~Miko shrugged, but he wrapped his arms around the boy and nuzzled into him. He sighed a bit before pulling back and staring up at Declan.~
That wasn't a test, D. You could have licked the plates clean and I'd not care... The test comes later... when we meet up with that vampire... We both know that's the real test.
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Post by LittleDeadGrrl on Feb 28, 2013 16:32:03 GMT -5
-Em relaxed when Jules pulled back before moaning and sighing into the kiss. He growled a bit and pushed the vampire roughly up against the wall as they lost each other to the blood lost for a moment. When it was over he was licking his lips and the predator was just as alive in the vampire ... -
Come on ....
-He smirked. He knew it was a bad idea for both of them, a slippery slope, both had lost a lot of control but neither seemed to care in the moment. Elsewhere Declan tugged the cat in closer kissing up his neck ... -
I coulda licked you instead of the plate ... still pass?
-He teased before shrugging ... -
You worry too much ... I've got self control Miko ...
-He said it simply, easily, but truth was he had never claimed another before. The wolf in him had never claimed another and he had no idea how it would react to anyone touching Miko, especially some vampire, and especially sexually. He hoped he'd keep a clear head but neither he nor Colt was exactly famous for that ... -
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Post by Synistergrrl on Feb 28, 2013 20:53:50 GMT -5
~Jules moved down the street with Em, the sun starting to peak up from the horizon. His arm was looped into Em's and both were a bit drunk on blood. They'd left the one boy in the ally and gone to another club and then another. But someone, through it all, they'd managed not to kill. The were climbing the steps to Miko's apartment, when Jules turned and nudged Em, slipping free quickly and darting up, passed the front door, up the steps to the roof. When Em would catch up, the sun was rising over New York and Jules was standing there, coat off, shoes, scarf, shirt, everything but pants, staring at it with a smile. He turned to look at Em, a silhouette in the bright morning sun. As Em drew closer, he'd start making out Jules features, those bright red eyes glittering like rubies. His lips were even a little stained, like they once had been. He held out his hand and pulled Em in closer.~
I do miss a big city... I think I'll always be a snob that way.
~He purred and then smiled.~
did your coyote tell you we have a house now? actual shelter, no more tents... and running water...
~The smile grew a bit. His hand wound around Em's neck as his thumb brushed his cheek. He was staring back into red eyes and he sighed.~
It's been so long since your eyes have been that red....
~He knew it would hurt Em, later when they were off this high. He pulled Em close.~
Thank you... for doing this with me... it is in your best interest though... you know?
~When Em would question that, Jules went on.~
This vampire, he doesn't know you. When he meets you and you have red eyes, he won't think you are you or me... because you always have gold eyes and Jean Luc would have people searching for that.... the golden eyed vampire. Don't tell him your real name either...
~He brushed back Em's hair as he stared into his oldest friends eyes. Some of the cracks were closed, though the human blood was nothing compared to Jean Luc's, but it helped muffle that want some. So now all Em saw was worry. Jules was honestly worried about him.~
~Elsewhere~
~Miko had just smiled at that, trying to believe it himself. He'd made Declan leave then and take him home. They'd gotten there long before the vampires and Miko had made Declan stay up the rest of the night. If they weren't talking, they were fucking and either way, both were good. They were drunk on wine and ordered more food which even at 4 am was delivered. As the sun breeched through the window, Miko was laying with his head on D's chest staring at the wolf with those pale blue eyes. And in that moment, every single thing was perfect.~
Miluji tě, D
~His voice was a whisper as he said those strange words. When D would look at him, confused, Miko just smiled before barely even speaking, more mouthing the words.~
I love you, D
~It almost seemed a bit sad, bitter sweet. Miko had never once said that to someone, or atleast not in that way, not with that kind of feeling behind it. And the cat was fairly sure that tonight, one way or another, this relationship, this thing they had, it was about to change. Something deep in Miko knew that in the end, it was going to end badly, something dark was on the horizon and he could feel it. It scared him, scared him so much that he didn't know if he could face it.~
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