It ain't right if it don't feel wrong

[Synistergrrl]

~Eli wasn't watching Maddy, he was watching Dane and the others. For a little bit he was just quiet and then he looked at the fox, really looked at him, studied him and then he nodded. He turned and walked out front. He dropped down on one of the chairs. He was silent for a little bit longer and then he spoke.~

I don't have anything backwards. I know the important thing is figuring out who set us up, why and what we are going to do about it. I know that... it doesn't change that I want to rip out his heart and leave him for the sun to char him into ash.

~He growled the words, looking fiercely out into the yard. He felt his fangs showing and he literally had to take a moment. He sighed for a bit.~

I just... In all the years we were together, I never once, not ever, not even when I was really young, first made. I never lost control. And I could be drunk. Maddy, fucking wasted drunk on blood and I still never once lost control. And yet he instantly, instantly assumed that it was me, that I lost control, that I would be that careless. Or that even if that were true, Sigh would let me just walk out and leave bodies like that... I just. He says he wants to make steps to be close again... He says he wants us to rekindle this relationship and then he... How am I suppose to want to even take that step with him when he obviously doesn't trust more. Nor does he honestly really care. You know he says he would come with me, if I left, he'd come. And yet... it's a lie. He might, but he'd be miserable, he'd hate leaving all of this, even you. All of you. He'd be so unhappy and I wouldn't ever be enough. I'll always be the one that cleaned him up and the one he left... nothing else... that's... FUCK

~He pushed up off the chair then, running a hand through his dark hair before he turned to look at Maddy.~

We should leave. That's the smartest thing to do. Me and Sigh, just leave. It'd help you all out. I can do it when Dane's not around. He'd be upset, but he'd get over it. And it'd be better for the rest of you and Sigh and I, we could find our own place.

[LittleDeadGrrl]

-Maddox followed him and dropped down next to him waiting for the vampire to speak knowing he'd spill the beans eventually-

Oh can I watch when you do that? Please ... pretty please ... with a cherry on top?

-He teased a bit but the vampire had a feeling the little fox wouldn't mind so much. He didn't hate ... Dane ... anymore. The vampire had saved Kael's life and that was enough for him. He listened carefully feeling the pain the young vampire's voice-

He cares. He's just an idiot ... he was up a few nights ago talking to Kaelan about how he fucked things up with you and wanted to make em better.

-He reached out keeping the vampire seated-

Look I can't tell you what to do but whoever set you up is either gonna follow you and you might get yourself and Sigh killed or stick around in which case we gonna need your help and if you think Dane won't follow you ... you're an idiot too. Just give it till we figure out what the fuck is going on and who did this ... then if you wanna leave you, you can, but you should tell Dane. Say goodbye proper like ... just my advice but what the hell do I know ... you're like 400 I'm sure you know better

-He grinned a bit before he sighed looking off-

I can't believe all those kids are dead. It's so fucked up ... I thought I was done with seeing blood on my hands but I think it's just the beginning

[Synistergrrl]

Wouldn't Kael be upset that you didn't stop me?

~Eli's brow arched, but it was said with alot less passion then anything else he'd said.~

He says that, to everyone. But he does NOTHING to prove that. He's accusing me, trying to own me, act like he's still... I mean he is still my maker, but he cut that bond along time ago. He can't control me anymore. He's got to stop acting like he can. It really just makes me want to do the opposite of anything he says.~

~Eli's eyes flitted to where Maddy's hand was on his arm. His head cocked, eyes lifting to the fox's.~

No, I KNOW he'd follow, but he'd be a bitch about it the whole fucking time.

~He ran a hand over his face, scrubbing at it for a minute before he gave a scoff.~

I am NOT 400, you little shit. And I was planning on staying until we figure this out. I wouldn't... This is my mess, Maddy. I will clean it up.

~He shrugged a bit, staring back out over the yard.~

Our lives are always filled with blood and death... and I don't mean just vampires. Unlike normal humans who are unaware of all the really truly evil shit in the world, we are up close and personal with it. As you well know, there are people out there that want to kill us just because of what we are. That alone raises the stakes considerably.

~He sighed softly and then slowly he looked over at the fox.~

I'd say a proper good bye to you, Maddy, and Cash, but I don't know about Dane. He wouldn't let me leave. And I don't know if I want him to come with me. That's just the blunt honest truth. And I know you guys don't like Sigh, I do get it. But he's... I get him and I don't.... he's staying because of me, because I am trying to make this thing work with Dane. But, I just don't know what more I can do. And when I try to... When I try and explain things, I find myself just so angry that it doesn't come out at all the way I intend it too. There's just way to much rage and pain... ya know?

[LittleDeadGrrl]

-Maddox stretched out a bit against the swing. His soft brown hair fell into his eyes a bit. The more he grew the more the fox looked honestly stunning. It suited him. He had this kind of smile that good look dark and full of bad intentions or full of light and make you smile no matter the shitty day you had. Then he could look upset and it was honestly no surprise while Kael wanted to keep him happy cause when the fox looked forlorn it was like a thousand orphans crying-

He'd be ticked but I could paint myself as an innocent in the whole thing ...

-He listened carefully not interrupting before he shrugged-

Look, maybe you do need to put distance between you two. You know Kaelan was the same way ... I mean he's not my maker ... but he wanted to bite me ... and he wanted to be my alpha. We had alot of rough full moons ... we broke up.

-He shook his head running his fingers through his hair-

I felt so fucking frustrated. It was like talking to a brick wall .. I told him he wasn't my alpha. Not the way he wanted to be ... barking orders and shit. I didn't like it and the fox in me liked it even less. He finally got it through his thick skull and we got along better. Dane is the same ... all the ones that think they is alphas are the same. Kola. Kaelan. Dane. TRIS ... but she's a bitch all the time so she's consistent in life. He'll come round ...

-He grinned a little bit leaning into the vampire a bit-

Oh you do like me ... I knew it ...

-He snorted a bit rolling his eyes before he shrugged looking off-

I know ... I mean ... I'm starting to know. My childhood was such shit you know and I thought finally ...

-He stopped mid sentence and laughed a bit-

I guess moving in with my college werewolf boyfriend should not have seemed like the stable thing to do ... but it was just good to have a family. Seems like it's come at a high price. And I don't dislike Sigh ... I mean anymore than I dislike you or Dane or Tris ... and I like him more than I like Dane most days ... so ya know he's getting up in my esteem. He seems more normal you know... being us might be good for him too ...

-He stood slowly and leaned against the railing-

Out there the two of you ... how well is that gonna go? Tell me the truth ... you don't see the two of you going a bit ... you know ... over the edge ...

[Synistergrrl]

Even after everything with Phrix, you forgive him for all that?

~Eli had been listening, nodding his head, but he was really just taking it all in. Until that last bit about Sigh. He came in closer, leaning near the fox.~

I shouldn't tell you this, because you, deep down, are not a nice person. But that night, when you let me drink from you, Sigh did not like that, at all. He made me promise that I'd not feed off another shifter. No one else but him. I think he was jealous....

~He smiled, knowing those words would amuse the fox.~

There is a sick ember of hope that you'll use this information to poke at Sigh, but more of me hopes you keep your mouth shut, for both of our sakes.

~Eli turned to back at the house behind them, able to see inside through the window. He watched as Kael stood back, his arms over his chest, nodding his head as Sigh spoke. Liam was standing near Sigh and then they were sort of disbanding. Or well, Liam was pulling Dane in and Sigh was heading their way.~

It would appear that Liam and Sigh are about to go and search out a scent.

~Looking over to the fox, Eli sighed.~

Would Sigh and I go overboard? With what? Murder, death and mayhem? No, I'm smarter than that. I have more control, as does Sigh. His indifference to most people lives doesn't make him stupid, it just makes him a killer... I can appreciate that.

[LittleDeadGrrl]

No ... but Phrix has told me to let it go and I guess if he has ... I can too ... eventually ...

-He grinned broadly when Phrix talked-

You saying on the surface I'm a good person? That's almost a compliment ...

-He arched a brow when he told him about all that ... -

So ... no more you drinking from me?

-He pouted-

So sad ... I kinda enjoyed it. Even if Kael was super pissed about it ... he's a little on the jealous side. Shocking I knw ...

-He ran his fingers through Eli's hair-

I'll keep my mouth shut. Unless he provokes me ... then I can't be blamed for my justifiable actions ...

-He shrugged a bit slowly at the last part-

I'm not convinced. You two feed off one another. It's like if me you and Phrix went on the town. We'd get in shit trouble ... it's why we need Kael and Kola to kinda keep us a bit leveled out.

-He frowned slowly-

He is a killer. So are you. I understand why you get along ... I wouldn't mind him gone you know ... I've never lied about it ... but I kinda like you around. I'd miss you if you left ... and if you make fun of me I'll use what you told me against Sigh ...

[Synistergrrl]

Almost... but not quiet... I still think you are pretty much an evil person inside.

~Eli smirked a bit. And then shrugged some, reaching out to tug Maddy in closer, his hand slipping around the back of Maddy's head, drawing him in closer. He tilted his own head, leaning in and inhaling Maddy's scent.~

No, I'm afraid not, as tempting as you are. I don't think I'd want to stop with just a little taste this time.... I'd want more....

~The way the word more rolled off his tongue, it sounded sexual, thick and heavy and full of want.~

But, Maddy, that's the beauty of it. We are both killers. We keep each other in check, I could show you, if you wanted?

~He almost purred those words as he let his nose drag up the fox's neck.~

Oh, I'd not make fun of you for that, Maddy. I like you too. I think I'd like you more on your back.

~He grinned at that, pulling back to show his grin to the fox, teasing him. But even as he laughed, Maddy had to question of he meant that.~

[LittleDeadGrrl]

You're the only one .. everyone else pretty much agrees I'm adorable ...

-He grinned but it flatered when the vampire came in closer. He couldn't deny being bitten hadn't felt just amazing. He tilted his head back a bit giving the vampire access to his neck almost daring him to bite. The fox really was a little shit ... -

How much more?

-The fox teased back all but purring as he smiled faintly-

Show me? How? Like me, you and Sigh go out on the town? I'll mention it to Kael I'm sure he'll be overjoyed ...

-He snorted abit as he pushed the vampire-

Sure sure ... tease ... I open up my soul to you and you just make jokes ... I'm kinda of wounded ...

-Sigh growled slowly-

You can be more then wounded Maddy if you agree to whatever Eli is suggesting ...

-It sounded almost threatening but Maddy snorted-

yeah ... you're on the alphas shit list and now you threaten me ... I can see you are one sharp tool there Sigh ... really ...

-He pushed up and glanced down at Eli-

Think about what I said ...

-He passed by Sigh, his eyes narrowed before walking on. The snake ignored him as he sat down tugging Eli into him-

See ...i told you we should have killed those kids. If we get all this shit you might as well have gotten your fill on blood

[Synistergrrl]

Oh, I could show you so many things, Maddy.

~Eli purred a little bit against the fox. Whatever he was suggesting, it was a bit of dark as well as sexual. The vampire's hand was lifting up to touch Maddy when he heard the snake, a smirk toying over his lips. He leaned back, letting the fox go, shrugging and waving him off, a silent way of saying yes yes, I'll give it thought. But then he was leaning back into the snake with a sigh, closing his eyes.~

Well from now I'll try and remember how wise you are.

~He teased, turning to face the snake.~

You're seriously going off without me?

~He frowned and then he pulled the snake in closer, feeling Liam near waiting.~

Okay, fine... go... but don't do anything to stupid. I mean it... I don't want to have to swoop in and save your scaly ass...

~He was snarking at the snake, but Sigh could see it was because he was nervous. He didn't like this not knowing. Fuck his whole life was fucked and now, now someone was trying to get to him. And it was setting him on edge. And now, Sigh was going to go out there and try and hunt this person down.~

[LittleDeadGrrl]

-Sigh dropped down and kissed along the vampires neck biting a bit roughly. He snorted a bit at the tease before he nodded-

Yeah. I am. Me and Liam can trace the scent ...

-He snorted as he cupped the back of his head-

Don't get all soft on me vampire ...

-He leaned in claiming his lips before he stood slowly ... -

Stay here Eli. Don't follow or go off alone ... we can talk about how we will handle this shitstorm when I get back and hopefully I'll find out who did this and bury them in a deep deep fucking grave ..

-He sighe dbefore he smiled a bit-

It was a good night though ...

-He grinned a bit as he got up and moved to join Liam who was waiting impatiently for the snake-