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Post by LittleDeadGrrl on Jun 17, 2014 15:40:29 GMT -5
You little shits ... you would shift with them and not me ...
-Tris shook her head annoyed at the two toddlers on her lap. She was smiling though content, both dressed now, and both making alot of noise. She was back at the big house having come that morning to pick up the twosome and found them both shifted. Kael had looked semi appologetic about not calling her but he'd said he felt she needed the night and to his rurpise Tris had just shrugged her shoulders a bit and didn't seem too upset. He'd gone back upstairs to sleep since the kids had kept him and Maddy awake alot of the night. So now as Phrix came down to make himself breakfast it was one of the few times the two of them found themselves alone. She glanced up at smiled a bit at the fox-
Hey if you're making coffee I wouldn't mind a cup ...
-She thought about what Luke had said and truth was she did miss Phrix. Part of her had honestly been nervous about facing him. She'd felt responsible for getting Grey killed and he and the fox had benen close, almost mated. She knew the fox wouldn't refuse her so after he made coffee and came down to sit with her she set Cora down between them who began crawling int towards him since Jax was in his mother's lap playing with her fingers-
Cora's been missing you I think ...
-It was easier than saying I've been missing you ... but it wasn't her way to be so open with emotions ... -
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Post by Synistergrrl on Jun 17, 2014 21:40:45 GMT -5
~Kael would have looked much more sheepish if he hadn't been so fucking tired. But he did apologize and then let her take them as he crept back to bed. It was quiet for a little bit until the fox appeared. He stopped short, seeing the babies and a slow smile crept to his lips. His eyes flickered to Tris and the smile grew from soft to sad, but he nodded and after a moment, he returned with a cup of coffee, fixed the way she liked as he sat down. He set his own cup down and reached out to pull Cora into his lap, his hand brushing through her dark hair.~
Look at you... how beautiful are you? Huh? When did this happen?
~He looked up at Tris and there was a smile there, soft and it didn't grow sad when he looked at her. And then he leaned in and nuzzled against Cora, scenting her, his dark green eyes looking away from Tris for a moment. The baby giggled and pushed the fox. Phrix pulled back and then looked up at Tris before looking over at Jax. He shook his head.~
It's disgusting how beautiful your children are, you do know that right?
~He knew she was saying she missed him and it felt good to hear that. He missed her as well. And he knew they both felt guilt for Gray's death and just being near each other, well, it was really hard and painful to be close at all. Phrix had loads of guilt with all of this and it sort of rolled off him. The only time he didn't feel so broken was when he was with Aiden and even then, it was like the wolf was holding him together.~
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Post by LittleDeadGrrl on Jun 18, 2014 14:33:29 GMT -5
-She took the coffee and smiled a bit sipping it eagerly. Cora snuggled up against him trying to pull at his necklace where a few charms jangled. She was making little baby noises cooing quietly. Tris watched the way her daughter cuddled up to the fox knowing both had missed the fox who had once been a staple in her home ... -
Last night ... they waited to be with with Maddy and Kael before both little shits shifting. On the bright side they didn't sleep much ... kept Kael and Maddy awake the whole night ...
-The alpha bitch grinned a little bit ... -
Don't let Luke here you. He wants his own ... as if I'm some kind of baby machine ...
-She snorted a bit as Jax slipped out of her lap and moved pushing Cora to try and get his spot on the fox's lap ... -
You know if you want to look at them you should be around the house more ... you can stare at them all you want ... maybe babysit since they tire me out quick enough ...
-She smiled before she reached out and brushing her fingers through Phrix's hair ... -
It's ... crowded in this big home ... isn't it time you come home?
-She murmured softly but she looked down unsure the fox would want to ... despite what Luke said ... -
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Post by Synistergrrl on Jun 18, 2014 20:07:08 GMT -5
Ofcourse they did. They are your children.
~Phrix teased a little bit. He took Jax, leaning in to scent the boy as well. He felt like there was a whole missing and this was a torn shredded part of it. His eyes were closed as he nuzzled into Jax and then he looked up at her as she went on. His brow furrowed when she touched him and the soft smile he was wearing fell to a frown. And there, in that moment she had to know he was about to deny her. But then he pushed up, making sure the babies were safe on the couch. He slipped in and hugged her, nuzzling into her tightly. He took a deep breath of her scent. Slowly he slide down to the floor and buried into her lap a little.~
I can't go back to that room, Tris. I can't. I'm so sorry... it's all my fault. David came for me... and I'm the reason that Gray's not...
~He wasn't looking at her and his voice was muffled. She could hear the hitch in his voice as he tried to talk, but even mentioning Gray's name was like a dagger in his soul. And she'd feel it, the soul crushing guilt that was eating at the fox and the hot tears wetting the legs of her jeans. He sighed a little bit and then he slowly looked up at her.~
It's my fault Gray was killed. And I don't know how to make that up to you. I took one of your pack, I'm so sorry for that.
~His voice was shaky as he said it, but he was holding her gaze, letting her know that in that moment he was willing to accept any punishment she wanted to give him.~
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Post by LittleDeadGrrl on Jun 19, 2014 14:01:26 GMT -5
-She held him on tightly before staring down with a thrown. She nodded before her eyes widened-
Are you fucking serious Phrix? Have you honestly been blaming yourself this whole time ..
-She slide down off the couch and wound her arms around him holding him close as she nuzzled into him-
It was not your fault. It was mine ... he was under my protection ... and it was my stupidity that got him ... that did all that. I'm sorry you lost your mate cause of me ...
-She pulled back frowning before she cupped his face, her thumb dusting his brow as she sighed sadly before smiling ever so faintly-
I miss you Phrix. My house has felt so lonely ... it's bad enough to lose Greyson but I'd hate to lose you too. I know that room you can't go back to ... but there are other rooms. You and Aiden ...
-She held up her hand-
Don't decide now ... just think about it ...
-She shook her head a bit as she gazed up at the babies who were staring down full of intelligence and wondering why their two favorite people looked upset. She gazed back at Phrix brushing the tears from his cheeks-
It is not your fault. You brought him so much happiness ... and I thank you for that. I want you back in my pack Phrix ... but if you don't want to ... I'll understand and I don't blame you ... and you'll always have an ally in me if you ever need anything.
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Post by Synistergrrl on Jun 19, 2014 20:48:37 GMT -5
~Phrix frowned as she came down onto the floor next to him, comforting him. He shook his head as if he didn't believe her. His head shot up as she took the blame.~
No, Tris, no... it's... David was hunting me. If I'd not come here...
~He closed his eyes though, sighing when she said that he didn't need to take that room. That she was inviting Aiden as well. His head cocked for a minute as she went on. He smiled a little, though it was still sad. He brushed a hand through her hair.~
I never left your pack, Tris. It was just hard being there, smelling him still. And it felt... disrespectful... with Aiden. You're okay with him? I know it seems fast. I loved Gray... I still do... I just... Aiden makes me feel sane.
~He gave a little huff of a laugh, shaking his head.~
Look at the two of us. Wasn't there a time that we two were the most bad ass bitches around and here we are? When the fuck did we turn into such emotional, sappy, whiners?
~He waited for her to laugh and then he laughed too, cause it was easier, now that the two knew that the other was just as guilt ridden and neither blamed the other.~
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Post by LittleDeadGrrl on Jun 20, 2014 11:32:20 GMT -5
I understand needing someone to fill a hole ...
-She leaned back a bit and relaxed-
I know you loved him. He was too good for both of us ...
-She did laugh before snorting as he tugged Cora in her lap as Jax began to grab at her neck and hair looking for attention-
Haven't you heard? I'm 24/7 nanny right now ...
-She did smile nuzzling into the baby who laughed-
Whatever you decide atleast come around. I need to talk to an adult ... Luke is gone all day and I've banned him from staying at home with me. If we spent that much time togetehr I may kill him.
-She set Cora down slowly to crawl around-
I was going to ask Lark to be my emissary ... Luke's idea ...
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Post by Synistergrrl on Jun 20, 2014 20:07:30 GMT -5
No, no, he's not just someone to fill a hole. Aiden is more than that, We've both lost so much that, I don't know... He just gets me and I him.
~Phrix wanted her to understand that the wolf was more than just someone to keep him from falling apart. He wanted her to know for sure that he wasn't just using Aiden. He smiled a bit and then he cocked his head.~
Maybe we should have dinner, with the boys, let Aiden and Luke get used to one another and you used to Aiden as well? And I'll come over during the day. Or you could bring the cubs with us. Outside, by the pool? You are getting a little pasty. And the others are usually around, they'd love to have the pups around and we could sit on lounge chairs and hang out.
~But then he choked a bit, laughing.~
Lark? Really? I... well I suppose that makes sense. You'd gain Reyes that way as well as Lucky.
~He shrugged a bit but leaned back, staying on the floor, so he could lean against her legs.~
That is interesting....
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Post by LittleDeadGrrl on Jun 21, 2014 12:39:12 GMT -5
That serious huh?
-Tris arched a brow but she looked more surprised than anything, not judgemental or angry. She grinned slowly-
Luke would like that. He took me out to dinner last night ... I think he might like another male to talk to ... apart from Jax ...
-She teased catching Jax as he dropped to the ground off the couch. She snuggled him easily before setting him down on all fours-
During the day?
-She nodded slowly. She glanced back the cubs before looking at Phrix and snorting-
I'm not PASTY ... I'm pale ... and stunning. I guess it is good for them to be out ... and the snake sleeps with the vampire during the day so it should be safe. I still don't like them so close to my cubs ... either vampire or the snake. I just ... fuck I feel trapped sometimes you know. I love them so much ... I thought the connection I have with my pack was intense but with them it's ... I don't know. I'm terrified of making a mistake and them getting hurt and they can't defend themselves ... not yet ...
-She frowned a bit looking vulnerable but it felt good to talk about it with Phrix before grinning-
Luke's idea. I do need an emissary of sorts ... and I feel like Lark might say yes ... and yes I'd gain Reyes in the mix ... and Lucky too it seems. I need to feel like a real alpha again ... a real pack ... not just Kael's baby momma ... which is a bit like what I'm feeling now ... and like you said. I was once a big bad bitch ... I'd kinda like to be that again
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Post by Synistergrrl on Jun 21, 2014 21:22:44 GMT -5
~Phrix shrugged, but smiles sheepishly. And then he listened to her, cocking his head with a smile playing over his lips.~
You can't be with them all the time. And you are protecting them. But you still need to get out and have a life. I know you don't care for Dane much, but honestly, he'd not hurt them and he'd not let Eli hurt them or Sigh. But Sigh wouldn't touch them because we've asked him not too. I know you don't trust him, I understand that, but I do.
~He sighed a bit and then shrugs.~
But it doesn't matter, he and the vampires won't be anywhere near them, not during the day. SO it's nothing we have to worry about. So you'll come out more?
~When she nodded, he smiled. And then she was talking about Lark and he listened.~
I know it feels that way, I understand why it does. You are second to Kael. But being a good alpha isn't all bout being a bad bitch. BUT, that's not to say you don't need to start asserting yourself and part of that will be hanging out with the rest of the pack.
~He smiled a bit, arching a brow.~
See, I can be kinda wise when I want too.
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Post by LittleDeadGrrl on Jun 21, 2014 23:06:52 GMT -5
A wise ass maybe ... and I already knew that ...
-She teased before sitting back on the couch as she brought the coffee to her lips enjoying watching the cubs crawling around getting used to their new human boides. She glanced across at Phrix shrugging-
I know how protective I am of them is not logical and I know they are safe with much of the pack but it's not logic ... it's instinct. Part of me wants to shift down to wolf and stay way and keep em in some cave and kill anything that comes near ...
-She nodded slowly-
I will ... and tonight you'll come with Aiden? I am curious about the alpha ... as for Sigh ... I have no idea why you trust him but as long as he and the vampires don't come near them I'll be ok. As for Dane and Eli .. I just ... who knows what the blood of the two small pure blood wolves smell like to them ... they both feed of us ... they have a taste for it. I'm glad atleast Kael respects my decision in this though he didn't like it when I told him I didn't want Dane in the same room with them.
-She snorted-
Being an alpha is ALL about being a bad bitch ...
-She teased though and rolled her eyes-
Yeah yeah I get it ... thank you or wise wise fox
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Post by Synistergrrl on Jun 22, 2014 17:22:36 GMT -5
Yes, I'll bring Aiden tonight. But if you are going to ask Lark, I suggest you talk to him soon. He should be down for breakfast soon. He's an early riser, unlike the cat he fucks. But, I'd talk to him alone first, feel him out.
~He leaned over and kissed her then on the cheek, rubbed Jax's head, kissed Cora and pushed up.~
I'm going to go talk to Aiden. We'll be around for dinner tonight. Say like 8? The twins should be asleep by then, right? I'll bring some decent wine. You do cook, right?
~He dodged back as he said that, smirking.~
See you tonight, my alpha....
~His hand dusted over the top of her head when he said that. He went to the kitchen, grabbed another cup of coffee and slipped up the stairs to find Aiden. Creeping into the room they were occupying, he crawled onto the bed and set the mug of coffee down.~
Hey... brought you coffee...
~Leaning in, he kissed the wolf softly and Aiden would smell babies on him. Not just cubs, but babies, as in, the pups had shifted and Phrix had been with them as well as Tris, because he smelled an awful lot like her as well.~
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Post by LittleDeadGrrl on Jun 23, 2014 14:05:26 GMT -5
I'll poison your portion though Phrix ...
-She purred the words darkly when he teased as she went back to her cubs waiting for Lark to come down and thinking about what she was going to say to him. Upstairs the big wolf slept in a mess of sheets and pillows. He growled, grumbling when Phrix woke him before he tugged the fox down roughly flipping him a bit as he claimed his lips content before pulling back and arching a brow confused-
The cubs have shifted? So what did you and Tris discuss?
-He arched a brow before he leaned in kissing along the fox's neck hungrily almost before he pushed up and tugged the coffee to his lips. He had to admit when Phrix did bring him coffee, spoiled him a bit, he felt as thought he was alpha again. It felt good to enjoy this touch of luxury since it had been a long time since he'd tasted it ... -
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Post by Synistergrrl on Jun 23, 2014 19:43:32 GMT -5
~Tris doesn't have to wait long, Lark appears, but not from upstairs. He comes in from the back, smelling a bit like earth and plants. He stops when he sees her sitting there with the cubs.~
Morning there, Alpha wolf.
~He flashes her a grin as he moves into the room, head cocking. He looks at the twins and smiles, lifting his hand to wave at them, Cora reaching out for him, wanting to grab him.~
I heard they'd shifted... They're really cute.
~His head cocks, those dark eyes flickering over the wolf. Finally, he smiled again, held up his hands there were filthy and nodded like he was gonna get cleaned up.
~Upstairs, Phrix was pulled down and kissed and he laughed a bit. The wolf was smiling, looking fucking beautiful there, all sleep mussed and warm. He pushed up just a bit, looking at the wolf from sitting up on his elbows.~
How do you feel about going to dinner tonight with another couple?
~He smiled and then he cocked his head. The smile faltered a bit.~
She misses me. Says I'm part of her pack and wants me back in her house, with the rest of her pack. It's just... I'm not sure I can, just yet. It's... I don't now if I can just move back there. But she doesn't blame me, which... she should. So, she wants to have dinner and she wants me to bring you. So we can find our way back to being pack.
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Post by LittleDeadGrrl on Jun 24, 2014 9:16:21 GMT -5
I thought you'd be upstairs sleeping?
-She arched a brow looking surprised that the gypsy had woken so early and had evidently been working in his little green house. Cora frowned he left making a little noise that seemed to surprise her since it didn't sound like a howl. Finally she yelled at bit, which was loud, but by then Lark had returned. Tris smirked-
She demands your attention ... I'd do as she says ...
-She waited to see if he'd stick around. It was a delicate question but she wanted to feel him out first. Upstairs Aiden grinned when the fox laughed. He arched a brow as he shrugged nipping athis neck-
Tris and Luke?
-He guessed and then the fox went on and he arched a brow slowly. He leaned back against the pillows as he tugged the fox up against his body ... -
Is that what you want? To be in her pack?
-He was asking slowly brushing his fingers through Phrix's hair-
She wants me in her pack as well? I mean ... if you returned ... I'd have to join?
-He was questioning slowly. He wasn't sure he wanted to join a pack, he liked Kaelan cause the alpha didn't ask it of him. Truthfully he knew he was too broken to be a real alpha in the sense of having a pack ... and he'd be stronger for joining another ... but he knew he might fight Tris for top dog position and it could get ugly. He was considering it all carefully but mostly he was looking down at the fox to see what he wanted ... cause in the end it was all that mattered to him-
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