Post by Synistergrrl on May 21, 2011 9:23:23 GMT -5
~Outside of school, away from the tangible world, Kasha found that Nox was so much more then just the typical elf, much less a shadow elf. There was a connection between the two of them and it wasn't just sex, though that was amazing. Kasha couldn't imagine clicking with someone the way he did with Nox. But that all changed the moment they went back to school. Nox immediately began to act like all the other elves, falling in line with them and the Prince. It seemed to easy to have this duality for the elf, so much so that it bewildered the fox. He just couldn't be like that, it wasn't in the fox to just switch his personality like that.~
~The thing was, Kasha didn't question a thing when they were in that apartment together. It was like their own private world that was protected against anything bad. But school changed all that, burst that protective bubble, shattering the magic that the Fox was sure was there between them. When he was away from Nox, he over analyzed everything. He was sure that this was how he was suppose to feel, like he knew that he belonged there in that apartment with Nox. He knew that Nox wanted him to feel like there was no where else he'd rather be then there. And he did feel like that. But Kasha was nothing if not clever. So he knew that on some level this was all a ploy, that Nox wanted him to feel like this. Nox wanted the fox to feel as if that apartment was home and that having Nox there with him was the icing on the cake.~
~But once they got back to school and Nox went back to his upper eschelon, well the little fox could only watch and know that all the other elves knew that Nox owned him and it made his fur bristle. Nox even said for him not to worry about, to not care what the others thought. And there was some amount of sanity to those words. But it was hard for Kasha. He didn't want to be owned and he certainly didn't want any elf to think he was some whore who was pampered like a pet and then he was expected that he was some loyal little creature who was there with a drink and Nox's slippers when he came home. It made him want to puke, made him want to just pull out his fur.~
~So what was he supposed to do. Live for the weekends? The weekends were like some dream and then when he returned back to school it was a nightmare. He was in a funk all week, he was despondent, depressed, a wreck really. He wanted nothing more then to just be with Nox like they were during the weekends. And ofcourse, he knew that next weekend he'd be right back there. Even Fenris had gotten along with Nox and ofcourse the human had his own drama with his own elf. Atleast Kasha could talk to Fenris about his problems and know that Fen would understand. So when he entered the cafe and saw Fen leaving after another human, the little fox frowned. He looked around and his amber eyes settled on the elf. There was something stunningly regal about Nox and it sent a shiver down his spine. Why did the elf have such a pull on him. He suddenly didn't feel hungry anymore, he suddenly only wanted to just escape and get away from everything and everyone. He just wanted to leave the school and find some place where there wasn't this class separation. So he turned and left the room, moving away and feeling the need to just get away from all this bullshit, this fakeness. He already knew he just needed to bury himself into a book and ignore it all, just let it go.~
~The thing was, Kasha didn't question a thing when they were in that apartment together. It was like their own private world that was protected against anything bad. But school changed all that, burst that protective bubble, shattering the magic that the Fox was sure was there between them. When he was away from Nox, he over analyzed everything. He was sure that this was how he was suppose to feel, like he knew that he belonged there in that apartment with Nox. He knew that Nox wanted him to feel like there was no where else he'd rather be then there. And he did feel like that. But Kasha was nothing if not clever. So he knew that on some level this was all a ploy, that Nox wanted him to feel like this. Nox wanted the fox to feel as if that apartment was home and that having Nox there with him was the icing on the cake.~
~But once they got back to school and Nox went back to his upper eschelon, well the little fox could only watch and know that all the other elves knew that Nox owned him and it made his fur bristle. Nox even said for him not to worry about, to not care what the others thought. And there was some amount of sanity to those words. But it was hard for Kasha. He didn't want to be owned and he certainly didn't want any elf to think he was some whore who was pampered like a pet and then he was expected that he was some loyal little creature who was there with a drink and Nox's slippers when he came home. It made him want to puke, made him want to just pull out his fur.~
~So what was he supposed to do. Live for the weekends? The weekends were like some dream and then when he returned back to school it was a nightmare. He was in a funk all week, he was despondent, depressed, a wreck really. He wanted nothing more then to just be with Nox like they were during the weekends. And ofcourse, he knew that next weekend he'd be right back there. Even Fenris had gotten along with Nox and ofcourse the human had his own drama with his own elf. Atleast Kasha could talk to Fenris about his problems and know that Fen would understand. So when he entered the cafe and saw Fen leaving after another human, the little fox frowned. He looked around and his amber eyes settled on the elf. There was something stunningly regal about Nox and it sent a shiver down his spine. Why did the elf have such a pull on him. He suddenly didn't feel hungry anymore, he suddenly only wanted to just escape and get away from everything and everyone. He just wanted to leave the school and find some place where there wasn't this class separation. So he turned and left the room, moving away and feeling the need to just get away from all this bullshit, this fakeness. He already knew he just needed to bury himself into a book and ignore it all, just let it go.~
